Back in sui ideation the past few days. This morning kinda... practicing.... hard to reach out and talk about what we’re not allowed to talk about.
T gone until Monday apnt. Don’t want to go inpatient
Mom’s birthday Sunday. Might have something to do with it. Supposed to celebrate tomorrow.
Also I’m laid up again with shoulder and ankle injuries. I’m tired of being in pain and see that Red glad for relapse coming up. Tired of using my skills. Tired of the cycle. Always the same cycle.