hi guys, just enough energy for a quick update. thanks for the help. i was really at a loss as to what to do and of course my thinking/coping skills are quite a bit out of whack at the moment.

i went straight on over to the doctor thurs morning.... he had faxed the referral wednesday; he thought they'd call me but they have some other kind of procedure so didn't. at any rate, the doc said "just go straight over to the hospital" and they can take it from there. which i did.

i don't really feel much better today, but unlike earlier this week i have a huge support network including a doc, the psych, some anti-depressants, a community nurse, and more. they say healing will come with time and some hard work, and i *do* believe them.

i can't thank you enough for your help, i honestly don't think i would have made it through wednesday night without the good sense and compassion of everyone here.

c.