Hi, Bubbles,

I don't trust you at all, but I like you, and so I imagine that the trust will build over time. I hope you mean it when you say that you won't abandon me, because if you did I don't know how I would cope. It's not even you that triggers it, but the institution, I guess. "Oh look, yet another therapist that wants to or actually does abandon me." I would never go back. Never.

Yet I'm heartened because I like you, and I feel that we'll be able to develop a rapport. That feeling with you that it's possible with someone other than RoboT is nice. Because I hadn't developed that rapport with anyone before him, and with V and the other lady I saw twice, it didn't feel obtainable. And so I guess it's possible to like your therapist and them not be a d-bag who over-discloses and drives their patients to hurt themselves.

I hope you don't ask me more questions about The Thing I Do. That's something I've never shared with family, friends, or my husband. It felt invasive and unsafe to discuss, especially since you're a stranger. I hope you got the hint that it was your questions about The Thing I Do that caused me to flip the pillow. I don't think it's relevant to my therapeutic care, so just...don't?

I'll see you in 5 days.

-Daisy

PS: for the love of God buy some new socks.