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Originally Posted by DechanDawa
Is the medication making you feel disconnected? I tried Bupropion in December and I had such bad side effects I had to immediately stop it. I don't want any more offerings in the way of psych drugs. Yes, I thought being stable would bring peace-of-mind and contentment. You know, all those years of struggling with quitting this and quitting that. Now there's nothing bad left to quit. And I feel so blue.  Have you stopped drinking? I stopped drinking and sometimes I think I should start again! But not really. It's poison. I feel very physically healthy and I want nothing to tamper with that now. |
It is TOTALLY the medication that is making me feel disconnected. I used to be very spiritual and be MOVED by things....the Earth, nature, the universe and even praying to God. Now nothing. Just emptiness where that faith used to be. But hey, I am stable right? Ugh. It's the pits.
I totally feel you on the struggle of quitting this, giving up that, and I am lost in a state of confusion just like you my friend but don't feel blue, because trust me you are not alone in this.
Drinking. Ugh. What a MOUNTAIN that is for me. I have struggled with alcohol my whole life, since I was a teen. Since I am bipolar, drinking has been my nemesis, and now being medicated, I am in even a deeper dilemma, because I found solace in drinking just a little bit here and there to keep me from blowing my top. But I KNOW its wrong, and I KNOW its a slippery slope, and oh, how I wish just getting wasted would just solve everything, but I think we both know, it totally won't.
Oh, and I was sober for an entire year, taking my medication every day, doing everything right, and STILL ended up hospitalized because I was completely out of mind. Explain that one?
Ugh. The struggle is real.