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Originally Posted by DechanDawa
On Vogue: What bugs me is how Wintour at the helm holds such tight reins and the mag is getting flattened. Needs new blood. More street fashion. It's lost its edge. I still read it and love it but if I had the money would get British Vogue. NY Vogue is insanely cheap. To subscribe...a dollar a month!
On therapy: I had a counselor from my health provider call me regularly all last year and she did nothing for me. I terminated. I have "complicated grief" about my sister on top of PTSD from the toxic relationship I was in at the time of her death. I called the grief counseling center after she died and the head of it (I knew her) said they couldn't handle complicated grief. WTF? I dislike therapy and therapists.
On a diagnosis: I paid over $400 out of pocket for one session with a psychiatrist from my health provider. He refused to give me a diagnosis. He said I was suffering from social isolation and life stress. My problem is I self-protect with medical professionals so they see me as very grounded but with life stresses. Who knows...maybe I am bipolar but hell will freeze over before anyone from the medical profession seems to get onto what would help me.
Online On Show: Well, now, my dear, you don't really know who is reading you now do you!?  It seems to me you always show up in the middle of the night and you are mysterious, shadowy, sensitive, and somewhat other-worldly. One simply doesn't know who is lurking and reading. I have a big (writing) mouth and when I come on I post a whole mountain of stuff. Then I disappear...on my Gemini winged heels...which is what I am going to do now. Take care. Always! Sobriety is beautiful, beautiful, beautiful. It's a state of grace. Immerse yourself.  |
Well, to be honest, when I was first learning about being bipolar, or even accepting it, they had to literally catch me with a net and lock my *** up. Like seriously, so trust me when I say I KNOW that struggle too, really well. But if I were you, I would do a little research on some psychiatrists, or even therapists first, and at least THINK about giving it another shot, I honestly think you are way too high-functoning to get caught with a net and dragged to a psych ward, and I wouldn't even wish for that, so your best alternative would be to seek out a way for you to get help with your depression from a professional with some credibility. The system IS flawed, and there are yahoos out there masquarading as mental health professionals, some even have fancy degrees, but I can tell you from experience, that once you sit down with the RIGHT one, it all becomes so clear, you wish that you had done it so much sooner.
And I love that you love the mystery of my online persona! I am such a creature of the night its unreal, and I slide by here too, and post like crazy and then vanish into the night from wence I came. Thanks for brightening my outlook on this site, (I had been feeling a little isolate and disconnected on here recently), and I hope you visit again soon and I run into you again, hopefully at night!
Lets dance to sobriety shall we? It sure as hell ain't easy.