Lately I feel like I'm in a dream .. everything feels foggy. I'm starting to get paranoid and things don't feel real anymore. I had to go off of my Risperdal because I was lactating so now I don't have an AP to help try and regulate this stuff .. I won't have any meds until Monday. Until then I'm stuck trying to figure out what's real and what's not. Heck that's even if the meds will help pull me out of this. I'm not feeling very good mentally. I think my friends are plotting against me .. I don't think they like me anymore. I'm scared to meet up with them when I get back home because I'm afraid they're going to attack me. I don't know what's wrong with me. But something is wrong and I'm struggling to handle things right now. Doesn't help that what little family I have up here leaves me alone 95% of the time .. nobody comes to visit. I try to sleep most of the day cause it's the only thing that helps with the paranoia. But right now I can't fall asleep .. and I don't want to end up back in IP again. So I'm trying to deal with this on my own but I'm failing. Nobody will listen to me when I tell them I'm not doing well .. I can't move back home until March 31st .. which I'm unsure if my mental health will last that long. I'm trying to convince my mom to come get me sooner cause I don't know how long I can last with these issues by myself. I see my case manager Tuesday and I'll let her know what's going on. I'm just worried they will want me back in IP and I can't really afford to go again.

Any tips on how to get yourself out of a dream state? or a break with reality?