This is a great place to start. You must firmly decide that this is what you want and be willing to take the steps and move through the hard parts, including the lasting withdrawls. There are a number of things that can help you. I am personally of the belief that the main reason we seek addiction is due to lack within and around ourselves. There's an experiment called Rat Park you should read about. Finding a really healthy, vibrant community is both difficult and essential to successful recover, I believe.

Find out the things that can bridge the gap in your recover. Take cbd, valerian, rose hips and chamomile to help wind you down every night. I've even heard of people keeping Narcan to be able to keep their receptors filled when they are feeling particularly weak, though I don't know how safe or affordable that option is. I'm glad you have this community here, but you truly should surround yourself with the healthiest people you can find. I think that's where it all really breaks down