I agree with Perna that you need to find something else in your life that you can concentrate on. I have said this before
Dustin.........STOP!, she will absolutely NOT be in your life for the long haul......she has her own life to live and won't always be there to RESCUE you. You need to RESCUE yourself from the harmful affects of your paranoia, young man. GET YOUR BUTT IN GEER AND STOP WHINING...show her that you're growing Dustin and that she is getting through to you........it will make her job easier
alot more progressive. You need to circumvent your anxiety
into your SCHOOL, COLLEGE EDUCATION, and a CAREER as you will be there before you know it!!! It goes by quicker than you think, Dustin. FOR YOUR OWN SAKE,
PLEASE HELP YOURSELF...........YOU CAN DO IT.