Well, to be honest, when I was first learning about being bipolar, or even accepting it, they had to literally catch me with a net and lock my *** up. Like seriously, so trust me when I say I KNOW that struggle too, really well. But if I were you, I would do a little research on some psychiatrists, or even therapists first, and at least THINK about giving it another shot, I honestly think you are way too high-functoning to get caught with a net and dragged to a psych ward, and I wouldn't even wish for that, so your best alternative would be to seek out a way for you to get help with your depression from a professional with some credibility. The system IS flawed, and there are yahoos out there masquarading as mental health professionals, some even have fancy degrees, but I can tell you from experience, that once you sit down with the RIGHT one, it all becomes so clear, you wish that you had done it so much sooner.

And I love that you love the mystery of my online persona! I am such a creature of the night its unreal, and I slide by here too, and post like crazy and then vanish into the night from wence I came. Thanks for brightening my outlook on this site, (I had been feeling a little isolate and disconnected on here recently), and I hope you visit again soon and I run into you again, hopefully at night!

Lets dance to sobriety shall we? It sure as hell ain't easy.