Okay. So I have to share this story. I discovered a woman named Turia Pitt. She is Australian. In her mid-20's she was running a ultra-marathon and got caught in a brush fire. She was burned over 55% of her body...lost 7 fingers. She was physically beautiful...now, not. But she is still a beautiful warrior. She has a wonderful angel-like partner named Michael who stuck by her side through-out her recovery. And she just gave birth to a baby boy. I ordered her book. It is called Unmasked. You have to order it from Australia as it isn't available in America. Anyway...I am sort of obsessed with Turia and Michael. After she recovered she ran an Ironman. I am really curious...how does she do it? So I ordered her book as a present for myself.

My problem is I don't cope very well. I feel like I am coping at the most minimal level but it's not good enough. In order to turn my life around I have to become much, much better at coping.

I once had a very productive, fruitful life...than several stressful things happened and I fell into a pretty severe depression. I have been trying to pull myself out for three years. I realize that being depressed has become my identity...and that is probably my biggest problem. If I could get out of this identity...

I lost a lot to the depression. It was like my version of a brush fire. It just burned everything up...burned a lot of bridges...

But I have to find a new path. Coping well is what they call resilience...and I guess I am not as resilient as I need to be right now.

Please share your story.