This sounds so much like me it's scary.

I have been seeing my T for quite a while and for much of it I have been going 2x a week. This has been really good for me in the fact that I don't lose that connection, I don't lash out and shut down as much anymore, and often there will be realizations between the first and second session that helps me expand on the issues I'm facing. When I was going 1x a week life always seemed to get in the way between sessions. Also, I struggle with some trust and abandonment issues so it helps me to know she's there for me 2 hours a week.

The downside is that I have definitely become attached and somewhat dependant on her. Is it unhealthy? I don't think so, we talk about it often and that definitely helps, but I still fear losing my independence. I don't like to depend on people because that is when you get hurt. I find that it helps me to have my own boundaries in place and I am incredibly cautious of even approaching hers. I'm not sure if that is a good thing or a bad thing but it helps to keep me in check. It has caused a few ruptures at times but even those can be viewed as opportunities to learn.

Best of luck to you!