sending you much care and understanding.... I love my son so much... he is 23... and to be separated from your daugthers has got to be so very difficult... may I offer a ray of hope.. as you go along.. as your daughters grow older... they will seek you out... and your ex.. will not always have that "control"... and hold "steady" to the fact that you get to see them... and fight to see them more... it will keep you going... I too have sufferred from depression... and I know how hard it is...(((((gentle hugs))) if that is ok....