It sounds like she works openly with you on self-hatred and associated thoughts of self-harm, without judging you in any way.

Also, since you said that she saved your life, I am thinking that she has been open to speaking with you about thoughts of suicide.

She sound like she works willingly, nonjudgmentally, and skillfully with you on all of these topics.

How long have you been seeing her? And how long would you say that you have been discussing thoughts of self-harm with her?

Thanks for being willing to speak with me here.