yeah, im pretty sure they will just yell at me (which will be triggering) and ill have to go on probation for them but im already kind of getting 'treatment' for the use disorder...

i guess things are looking up... its just what im creating though, just sayin **** it and just doin things that are supposed to be good.. i feel ok sometimes but my moods change so fast sometimes like waking up and being confused of your surroundings i just get lost in the vortex sometimes and makes me just want to isolate, takes so much energy out of me ..

i am having a really hard time focusing, really sucks... but just trying to prioritize and rationalize and not kill myself in the process by ignoring my body signals

hoping it will get better soon.. just too much.. im not used to pushing so hard, but i dont have any choice