We're going to have to agree to not agree.
I have bipolar, PTSD, ADHD, and only recently decided to deal with my experienced sexual abuse. I don't like or love any of my perpetrators. I also don't hate them. I wish they chose more wisely, but they didn't. I wish I'd chosen more wisely throughout my life.
The only person I think I've ever truly hated was myself, and he's not too bad a guy, as I get to know him.