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Originally Posted by LadyShadow
Oh, trust me, I understanding your feeling about mental health professionals, because I was the same exact way for so long! Haha, that's why I said they caught me with the net. But you know, I don't want to get all philosophical on you or anything, but there is probably a very good reason why you have always been able to pull through these situations on your own. I know its your unbelievable strength and resiliance but to me, it seems there is something in the background working in your favor, almost other-worldly, as crazy as that sounds.
I admire your courage, and I definitely can see how you have perservered through for so many years, and I agree on the peer bonding of this site. No one knows the road we have to walk on except those who have walked on that same road, even bumpier than ours at times. So yeah, we will be here.
Especially me!! Oh, trust me I plan on keeping in touch. Don't you worry!  |
I checked out your blog. Nice. I could go into a whole discussion about #metoo movement...but I won't. Too tiring. Any movement is going to have some...shadows. But overall I think it was needed...and timely. It was time.
I am very interested in what you said about there being a reason I always end up...uncaught...as it were. It is not like I have not tried to get help. I was actually extremely shocked last year that month after month I was telling a mental health professional that I had suicidal ideation...and was expected to cope with that all alone. It was truly a shock for me as I did not know this was a reality in the world of medical mental health. But there are so many others on this site in a similar position. Unless you are actually in the act or in the planning of the act...you are left on your own. Incredible.
Mental health care is abominable. So far I have found this site and all the wisdom of its members invaluable.
As you probably know by now...I do believe coping well requires breaking the back of addictions. If I were engaging in all my former addictions I would be...I think in a very bad place right now. In way more pain...
I still feel...a deep emptiness...that's pretty problematic. I guess I have pretty deep existential angst. Maybe I am just permanently melancholic.
Hope you are well today.