Aaaand back in the to go or not to go boat.
I’ve used my DBT skills, pros and cons, distraction, took a bath, shaved my legs, started re-reading a book I like, been on and off the internet. Journaled, packed an overnight bag, gave the cat extra food, and prepped the place to leave. That was an hour ago. And I’m still sitting here. I’m somewhere between not well and not bad enough for psych ER. I could go there and talk to a SW or so I hear. But it’s on the other side of town. Yet I got dressed. Course, I’d have to wear scrubs.
This indecision could drive a person batty. 4 more hours before bed. If I watch a movie that could use two of them.
I have thoughts of self harm, but that in itself isn’t reason to go in. I also don’t want to be there with some 30 people who made get have flu.
Guess I stay home and keep doing what I’m doing.