You need to weigh the positives and see if you have been having a better quality of life. Personally I'm too afraid to get back on antipsychotics. I was on Zyprexa for about 7 years, but believe me it feels more like 20 years... sure I still feel like killing myself sometimes, but I have clarity. I should mention that I used to be an alcoholic and am sober one year now from the time I was admitted to hospital for liver failure and pneumonia...but that's another story. Don't let me influence or discourage you and yours. If you're going to take anything from my experience, it should be to always review your medication with your doc.