Yes, I have been diagnosed with BPD, Depression (they said it's just an episode) and PTSD. I attended a program for BPD for 10 weeks just until the end of January. That helped me sweet, blue ****-oll - it just wasted 10 weeks of my life that I could have spent preparing for varsity.

I'm still applying what I learnt there at home for the hope that by some psycho-pseudo-science magic it start helping at some point, but so far it's useless hippy ******** that just makes me angrier because it's wasting my time and I am no closer to solving whatever my stupid problem is. I was super hopeful and excited going to the program and very disappointed leaving it with very little gained of actual value or assistance.

I do meditations in the morning, I downloaded an app called Headspace - it does nothing for me, I feel like I'm wasting time.

I have a distress tolerance box, nothing in there makes me feel better.

I try to be mindful every day - I walk to varsity now instead of taking the bus - it doesn't reduce my anger, fear and sadness. I feel tense all the time, there isn't a moment that goes by anymore where I am not tense and aggressive. And I am angry about it, so it's like ****ing Russian nesting dolls.