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I'm trying,
Trying new stuff always, trying to move on

It's kinda hard

I don't really feel like I know what's going on, like .. I'm struggling to accept change but I don't fully understand because I'm forcing myself to do these things with no other option and I feel like.. i can't explain

I guess I am trying to start over, start my life, create a life, new life.. and everything I am is on the table being force changed because in my mind there are no options, literally...

Have to do this
Have to succeed...
Failure is not an option...
But I'm sick, I feel bad, but the masks are strong and I can't tell them apart from myself 😞

I'm at work now, just want to sleep haha..

Hope the whole day is slow