I got her to help with my emotional well-being but i find she is just a source of anxiety. I'm constantly worrying about her. My depression is pretty intense and i've only been getting her out once a day to a dog park. I worry that she's not getting enough exercise and stimulation.

She's currently having a medical crisis. She licked a lump on her hindquarters raw and i had to rush her into the ER. The vet cleaned up her wound and shaved her fur around it and it looked ghastly for a week, so upsetting. It's healed nicely and we go in tomorrow for her follow-up appointment. The ER vet said she would need to have the lump removed surgically. I am hoping we can avoid that extreme fate tho as her lump has miraculously disappeared.

The expense of having a dog is anxiety-provoking too. I have pet insurance for her and it's $65 a month -- an amount i should be putting towards my retirement as i am on private disability benefits and it stops at 65 in 14 years.

I do love her and i think she loves me but i am just sick with worry about her all the time. I worry that i am not taking good enough care of her. I don't have anyone to help me with her care or to share my worries and anxieties with. I've tried to give her away twice now but i changed my mind at the last second.

I tell myself, maybe it would be the best thing to give her away, even for herself. She would miss me but she would probably be happier with a more active lifestyle.

At any rate, i have to nurse her thru her current medical crisis and wait for her fur to grow in. I'm just sick about her and i'm supposed to be taking it easy.

Any thoughts?