Hi Sarah,

Welcome to PC!

There’s an old expression “kissin’ cousins”. You’re not the first and it’s not that unusual to feel what you feel. Is he your first cousin? Meaning like the son of your mother’s brother? Then, you can’t get married.

You are probably embarrassed, and he probably does not reciprocate those feelings, so I can see why you’d want to work through this.

It’s good to talk it through here where people will give you advice and opinions and you can decide what’s best to do.