T,
Work is driving me mad. I can't take it anymore. I feel like I have it good there. I also feel like I am being taken advantage of. I'm getting intensely angry and am trying desperately to keep it to myself. I tried being assertive, but I ended up feeling bad about it. I am so, so intensely rageful. H tells me, work relationships should be just that, work. HELLO! I have an attachment disorder?!? This is in NO WAY a choice.

I don't feel safe at all. I hate everyone around me and just want to be left alone.

I called Pdoc, and of course, I get the condescending secretary, "So, you missed your appt?" me: yes. Her: Well, I'll see if she will send in a script for your meds. or not. GO ahead and charge me for a no show, I have no problem with that. But the last think I ****ing need is to have my meds. held over my head. H is not happy with me about this. He can go **** himself. You are the only one I trust right now, I don't even trust myself.

I feel so helpless. I want to just be me, I want to be my own agent instead of even caring what other people think. I feel like I'm being kinder to myself than other people and that is saying something. I hate this toxic environment. If one more person asks me to do something for them I am going to go insane. I just feel so devastated.