Super irritable again. Not even depressed, just ****ing pissed as hell. I only have sarcastic, caustic responses in my head to most people I’ve come across today, including the students. My co teacher was very passive aggressive today. Basically accused me of not doing my job without coming right out and saying it. B****. **** her. I’m so angry I’m actually in a better place because the anxiety and depression are gone and I’ve entered “do not give a ****” mode. Yeah I’ll go to work but I don’t care what happens while I’m there. Just don’t want to tell the kids the wrong info so I’m still studying up.

I am working very hard at keeping my patience with my son. That is the only sucky part of being so rageful. He’s having a very hard time with his reading homework which is resulting in rolling around in the floor crying and yelling on his part. Basically having a tantrum. I don’t know what to do to alleviate his stress regarding this particular homework because I cannot discern why it’s so difficult for him. He just says he hates it. He loves to read and he’s an excellent reader so I’m not sure why all of a sudden answering comprehension questions is too much for him. I don’t like his teacher but I may email her to see if she has any insight. I’m sure if he was behaving like that in class I would have been notified already.

Though I’m very pissed off my energy is still very low so I’m not manic or mixed. I don’t think I’m in any particular mood state, just stressed af. I see therapist tomorrow so we will see what insights she has.