I am 48, a single mom of teens now, that means my excuses for not dating are going too. That means I have to take another look at myself now and realize I'm in a totally different catagory and will have to try pretty hard to get in that game. Sigh... is it even worth it?
Sometimes I think I would like to have a partner, with the companionship and the things that seem nice...but, like you, I have had some really shabby partners.
Speaking of you, it sounds like you have had a ton of experiences and adventures, not all good, but rich and varied.
I think if I had that much 'fun' I would be a much more attractive catch. Did you ever think of it like that? Maybe you think about settling down, but maybe its your freedom and independance thats attractive?