I thank you guys for your positive responses. They are insightful and helpful. I do take medicine and I do find time to bathe every night. A routine does really help. As far as finding my happy -- thats the issue. My happy stops working. The most recent example was prayer. It was doing a lot for me and now I cant seem to even get the energy to do it. Videogames used to distract me but no longer have appeal, I don't feel like talking on the phone, going for walks etc. Even when I force myself -- there isn't any joy in it. It's just me making myself drudge through. Any tips to help with that problem?