Yes I do, and my T says it is supposed to happen like that. For example, I sort of calm myself down with the kinds of things my T says. Like "You did really well to manage x." "Never mind, it's not the end of the world.""Ypu need to have a rest as well." Sounds crazy but those are the sorts of monologues going through my mind sometimes!
I used to have a constant abusive voice going through my mind which was contributing to having a low self esteem, getting very upset over things that seem minor to other people, and that sort of thing.
Funnily enough, when I started internalising T's voice, I also started internalising other people too. I mean that now I'm able to hear when people give me complements, and believe them (mostly) and remember them. In general now I remember the positive things that I hear from most people instead of the incredibly negative things that I heard from one person.
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