thank you for taking the time to write perna. to answer your questions first. i get to go home for 2 weeks every 4 months and during that time everything is great most of the time until i start digging for stuff:/ which i am aware that i do. we live in a very small town were everyone knows everbody and we go out to the local bar for bingo and dancing on the weekends when im home without incedent .
i know, it would be best to concentrate on the being happy and having fun in my relationship with my wife whom i love dearly. but i think i constantly think it would end my world if she cheated or left me. she tells me constantly though that what im doing is going to push her out the door but i cant seem to get a handle on it and i am so worried. i have to say i am a good looking man and i used to be a blast to be around and im sure thats what attracted my wife to me. it seems over the years that i have socially withdrawn and am not very pleasent to be around 50% of the time and i contribute that to this problem i have. and i am rdy to move on i just need the proper tools and guidance. and i am glad to hear that you issues are geting better and you are able to sleep better, i have in the past had problems with anxiety , impending doom to be exact and was unable to sleep a whole night and was often afraid to fall asleep for almost a year. thank god that has subsided. but i have a bevy of new probs that in my heart are much more severe