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Originally Posted by Amyjay
I think other people know or notice some things about me, like I really have a terrible memory, and there will be things that I contradict a lot. (Such as today - at work I found out a group decision had been made, but I am very opposed to this decision, but when I protested and asked why I wasn't given an opportunity to give my opinion I was told I did and I agreed. I went back and checked in the minutes of the meeting and sure enough "I" agreed along with everyone else. (I don't agree at all!! I very strongly oppose this decision!! Can we please do that meeting again with ME present?)) People know these things about me. It is just a part of me and my workmates have to put up with it. But they wouldn't ever think that I have a dissociative disorder, I am sure. I am just that scatterbrain that forgets things all the time. Luckily I am very good at my job, which makes up for my shortfalls.
Over all I tend to think that DID is much bigger on the inside.
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Thanks for your insights, AmyJay. I agree that most people would only notice that I am sensitive, forgetful, and visually unaware of things around me. They probably wonder why, but would not suspect a mental disorder. Then again, if I were to become a close friend with someone, they would probably notice more and more about me that was strange. That's why I keep almost all of my friendships as superficial acquaintances. It's sad to me because it feels hollow and rather meaningless. But I've been hurt too many times in the past, and I have to protect myself now if I want to survive.