I've ignored everything I could before this session. I'm now sitting in my truck, in complete fear mode before going in. I did an energy shot right before typing this exact sentence because it may give me the courage to go in. I HAVE TO go inside that building and face my self again. I feel so cold and hot all at once.
I'm going to relax a little, and let the idea of the pain be as real as it needs to be. I've come some distance. Let's stay on the path. I don't have to look at anyone. I'll pretend I'm talking to the floor. I know that's rude, to not look at the person I'm talking to, but it might help.