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UPDATE on my appointment scheduling catastrophe. I thought my appointment with my dentist was last week and I missed it. Instead, it was this Thursday. However, now I have a make-up appt. with my GP on Thursday to get all my meds., so I had to now call and cancel. But I did at least call, which is something I hate doing.

I made it to my GP this morning to get my blood taken. I was in what I call "inner hysterics" which is when I freak out but don't show it - because I kept reminding myself not to eat/drink and I got to work and absentmindedly ate a Starburst that I had in my room. I was SOOO angry at myself thinking that now they wouldn't take my blood because I ate a starburst, and I wouldn't be able to have my Thursday appt., and I wouldn't get my GP meds.

I ended up telling the person taking my blood the truth (I contemplated lying), and it ended up not being a big deal. I'm kind of finding this a bit humorous at this point TBH. I really catastrophized with precision. It was like a comedy of errors. So, I had my blood taken. One thing done.

My new dentist appt. is in March. She asked me, can i ask why you are cancelling (I always cancel due dental anxiety). However, I lied and said something came up at work. I just couldn't go through the real answer (that I had another Dr.s appt. due to cancelling).

I called my Pdoc just now, and the person on the line said she was trying to figure out what needed to be done with my chart. I told her I had called the other day. She asked me what meds. I needed. I told her. I couldn't remember the name of one of my meds- now I know it was abilify. Abilify's medical name, I think is written in Swahili or something. She said she is going to call my pharmacy this afternoon. Whether that will happen or not, I don't know.
I feel like I pushed through all of my anxiety and maybe? solved the problem.

It's kind of a relief, or it will be if my meds. do get called in. We shall see.

Now I need to figure out whether to still see Pdoc or to go with my GP. Or to find another Pdoc.

I kept to myself today and it was a much better day. I need to continue to do this to recoup my strength from the work negativity. Getting my meds. will hopefully help.