ty Zorah. It's so confusing when you suspect yourself of making stuff up.

T hasn't really used the word "fragment" She has just clearly stated that I don't have DID. She specializes in DID, so she would know. She says I experience dissociation. I've heard the word fragment elsewhere. I never lose executive control, never have memory disturbances, etc. There isn't a complete separate person in me... just some "qualities" and knowledge that I keep out of my conciousness... that is represented as a person in my mind, I guess. I don't know how to better describe that. My subjective feeling of it is consistent with what T says... I just get lost and confused sometimes because I really have a lot of defenses. I don't know if I'm making sense.

Actually, T is very, very patient. But we've been working on the same issue for about a year and a half now... that's when I first "saw" this woman in my mind. And for a long time, I've been just stagnating and not doing any therapy. I go and talk about nothing I didn't mean to make it sound like T is inpatient.

But I'm still having trouble wrapping my mind around that I didn't really make Her up. T helps me believe I didn't... but then I get away from T and I still question myself

PS: No memories to retrieve. Just dealing with very early pre-verbal trauma.