She never joked about adopting me. I daydreamed about it though.. (well not adoption, more like foster care. Adoption doesn't really happen in my country like that) or just of going to live with another person. I REALLY wanted to leave home.

As for her.. when my leg was about to be amputated, she promised she and my best friend would drive up to see me in the hospital or, if that wasn't possible, in rehab. They didn't. That hurt a lot. (My friend did visit several times. I think once in the hospital, maybe in the rehab facility, and a few times during weekend leave.)

Our relationship was way better then.. I wasn't obsessed with her anymore. We were just friendly. Appropriate.

She did send cards (a postcard with 7 post-its on it because she didn't have enough room to write otherwise!). We called once while I was in the hospital. (Went to voicemail, she left a message, not sure if we spoke. I did like that message.) Probably an email or two.

After I got out of rehab, I only went to school a few days here and there before I couldn't anymore (I was too tired and I'd been running for too long. And I was scared because I was in a new class. Burn-out, probably). We did see each other on the first or second day at least. Haven't had much (or any?) contact with her since then I think.

I'm thinking of sending her an email or a letter (her name, school address). Just to let her know I'm 'better'. Finished my high school diploma last year and am now working on the next/last. (Different levels of high school in this country. Highest level - also the school I met her at - prepares you for entering a bachelor program. Second highest - associate's degree program (sort of. Similar level I think, but it's 4 years). Lowest levels: entering a 'trade school'. (Highest lowest level can make you a nurse. It isn't necessarily working with cars.) I started on the highest level, spent a while at home and in residential, then finished second highest last year. Now working on highest.
In a lot of ways (everything but mood and PTSD basically) I have improved tremendously. Things are going well. I want to tell her so. I don't need her to reply; I don't desire a relationship with her. It's just that I saw her at a really low point in my life. After, she only heard things through my sister or her teachers. (Not the nice things - more the 'SUI attempt things' and needing ECT and such) I just want to let her know I'm doing better now. Am in a great school, and have plans to go to university in 2019.

I don't think there's much that can go wrong. I doubt she'll hate the letter, especially as I am sending it through school: I'm not looking up her address. I know that even if she responds, I won't fall back into the (not-so-healthy) way we once were because I have a support system now, and mainly because I know she's not perfect. Or perfectly reliable.