Since I've been doing this work and. Forcing my self out lately I've noticed things I do and that happen to me...

When I get stressed or nervous I don't feel it like other people I thonk... I start to get confused and enter a vortex if I don't resolve it fast ..

Maybe dissociation?

But I try to stay neutral with. Everyone and make everyone like me.. like if some one doesn't like me I feel threatened and afraid....
I get where I don't know what words to use and the words. I do use aren't the right ones.. so I feel stupid and not able to explain things..

Sigh, I hate feeling like I never know what's going on, always over compensating and pretending to know things..

I have to go now... be at work alone today... stressful, hope not too busy...