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Originally Posted by elevatedsoul
This is weird to me because I can't act how I feel, I just have to be acceptable in others eyes always..
Even if I feel like crying or cursing in anger, it's like I don't exist and I'm just a chameleon shape shifting to the scenario to survive or not be hurt?
When will I find myself and be allowed to be without being influenced by others?
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Elevatedsoul,
It sounds like you're having a difficult time believing that your thoughts and needs matter at all. Perhaps you think that your purpose is to please others? would encourage you to work with a therapist on accepting that you have value, and that your thoughts and feelings are just as valid as other people's. Until you believe that you have anything important to contribute, you will have a hard time allowing yourself to be who you are, and a hard time allowing inside parts of you to be active and express their thoughts and feelings.