At tomorrow's session, it will be a month since I've seen you. Every other week scheduling has been mostly working out, but when I have to miss my every other week appointment and can't get another until my regular spot, I find it very difficult. I need the support and my safe place to talk about me without worrying about anybody else.

It has been a hard, hard, hard month. Good things have happened and are on the horizon, but the challenges have been like rolling a stone uphill (or up a gradual driveway but feel like a mountain). I am plugging away and there is a light at the end of the tunnel, but I am depleted and unable to find what I need to feel otherwise. I am lonely. I miss having a partner who has my back.

This is my brain dump so I can go back to work and do what I need to do.