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Originally Posted by Imokay2
Honestly, I've been following this thread every day, and it really has lifted my thoughts. Thank you all for being open and honest, thank you for acknowledging that being single at times like this, holidays, etc. can be so hard on you.
Thank you for the people who have found healthy ways of dealing with this emotional pain, and thank you to those who say they cry now.
I am holding a big lump in my throat for those who are crying now because I woke up today, and went about my business as if it were just another day. I totally forgot it was the big V day. And for a minute, when I remembered, I started to feel a sense of dread, and then sadness too. But, it passed, I don't have anyone to feel sad about, since I put everything into perspective.
Not too long ago I would have sent something "valentiney" to him just to let him know I care and am thinking of him, ha ha, I know it was just supply for him, and he doesn't want something like that from me, so I have a sense of relief knowing that I am not looking like an idiot for doing that, and that I'm not going to stress all day because I'm not going to get something in return.
I don't even care today if I ever do if it means I have to be hurt by it.
Yay for no flowers preemptively buttering me up before some kind of catastrophe! Hurray for no cards with sentiments that don't belong to the sender.
Hurray for no landmines, and labyrinthine guesswork!
Hurray for no abuse, no disappointment, no lies!
And now, to celebrate me living through another year of no bs, I will do something for me, just enjoy this being just another day.
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This thread has been very helpful for a lot of people, including myself. I have gone through many cycles of hurtful relationships in my life. and even had so much pain revolving around this day in particular.
But gaining the strength that I have, overcoming the obstacles, has helped me be more compassionate and giving to others more than wallowing in the inner pain that I used to carry around with me so much.
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Originally Posted by golden_eve
I woke up crying this morning because it's Valetine's Day. No matter what I tell myself (that it's just another day, that I need to be single right now), I feel very lonely and sad that I am all alone.
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Eve. you come a long way since you first made this thread, and it is noticeable that you are getting stronger every day. Today was just a setback, and I won't even discount your feelings because you are entitled to them especially since I understand where you are coming from.
Everyone always says "its just another day" but it isn't to a lot of people. The best thing to do is have a good time tonight with your friends at the music event, and get up tomorrow morning and keep on doing what you've been doing. You have made some big improvements in your choices and what you want, and what you expect, and what you need for yourself.
As always so proud of you.
