In happy to say that the bad memories stopped last night and i relaxed enough to sleep.

My psyd still wants to do EMDR with me. I have a cousin who says I need to just get over my childhood and sick it up but I grew up with a sociopath abusing me and my dad doing crazy **** and making me want to die everyday. I ran away at 17. No one saved me. I had to escape my stepmother alone. ALONE! She never did anything to help me get out of there.

Anyway...I look forward to and dread doing EMDR. I'm worried about the memories that will come back to me and how I'll feel.