In a nutshell...
I've been treated for depression since I was sixteen, and have had problems my whole life. In kindergarten, ADD was suspected but my parents didn't buy it. Looking back, I think it was the correct diagnosis.
I am extremely intelligent but got poor grades. I just couldn't ever focus enough to use my talents... and now, I'm almost 29 years old, with a college degree but stuck in a boring dead end job, and terrified that I will never get out of this rut. I've been diagnosed with chronic depression and have taken every antidepressant ever made at some point. Result? I could get out of bed, but not out of the rut. Nothing really worked. Now, I'm not taking anything. I'm not depressed. I'm just frustrated.
I wish so much that I could finish what I start. But I never can. I wish I could focus on whatever I'm working on long enough to make it my best work. But I can't. I just wind up stuck in jobs that don't challenge me because I can get by with less than my "best effort."
I am capable of so much more than I am ABLE to do, if that makes sense. I'm not a lazy person- if this was all a matter of "buckling down," I would have done it by now.
I truly believe that I have ADD and have all my life. I want to talk to a doctor and try medication for it. I just don't know where to start. Any advice?
Thanks!
Wumpy =0)
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