I don't know how

I try but something shuts me down or something...
I don't think I am real anymore kind of... I don't know what's going on at all.. just confused and seemingly over compensating at the expense of other problems..

But I seem to be functioning.. besides feeling really foggy and forgetting stuff so much... but they havnt yelled at me at work yet and I havnt messed up bad on the forklift or whatever.. hope I'm doing ok job... I'm trying... it's just hard, think my mind is a little messed up right now

I can't fail though, the job has to work out.. I can't look weak cause everyone is watching me litterally...

I think I'm making it worse, I'm going to be fine

Today was just a long rough day..