I have a new neighbor. She is 19 and is like a mini-me. I see so much of myself in her its painful. We share a compulsion and I got to help in her time of need but then got seriously triggered and freaked out. I didnt freak in front of her I waited til she went home and had to email my T.

My T and I talked about the issues that have already been addressed and I fear others will come too its just a matter of time. My T tells me to distance myself from her or she could be the thing that tips me over the edge and into the hospital. I am trying so hard but right now it is very hard.

I have so much of my own stuff to deal with I don't know how or even if I should try to help this girl. I am a fixer and I want to fix her problems and then maybe just maybe I'll be able to make it work in the end too.

Anyway I'm sure this doesn't make since cuz I took my meds and they are kicking in and I have racing running thoughts so will see how long this takes.

Jbug