Feeling super annoyed with the unfairness of life.

Day 3 of my lowered dose of lamictal. My manager said something about needing to reduce the tension at work today. I told her I felt blamed for it. At any rate, a lot has happened this week so far and its like, 'um, am I sure this is the right decision? am I sure I can do this?'

I looked at our labor statistics and I serve thousands of customers a week and I'm often front and center in our store. I'm like 'am I in the right line of work?'

At any rate I have my one on one with my manager in a couple of weeks and I already started to talk to her about things like deployment and I mentioned to a supervisor it would really help me to know where I'm going every day before I get there, or at least before I punch in.

I started talking to my manager about where I'm best when I'm freshest.

My therapist was like 'don't tell them you're bipolar, just talk about strengths and weaknesses'.

Its kind of shocking to me how selfish everyone is in some ways. I was older then everyone at work today and I was the only person in my position.

I'll be honest with y'all, I HATE being submissive and at my age, and after what I've done, who wouldn't?

*sigh*

Tomorrow I have to work with the supervisor who sent me home early on Monday...