I’m so sorry for your loss of both your nephew and long term T retiring, that I can relate I have seen my new T 3 times and I’m not sure it’s going to work but I’ll try.

It’s okay to not be okay , your not a bother, whining or pathetic, your in need of support and need it a lot right now.

Advice ? Hell my life is a mess tbh so I don’t have any but I’m here and I can relate.

Loads of hugs !!