I lost three of my grandparents from 2012-2014. My cousin took his own life leaving behind a wife and a newborn in 2013. I've never been that depressed in my life and to this day am still grieving. I recently lost my uncle to cancer. I had a long relationship with two of my grandparents fortunately, but to my despair didn't have a relationship with my cousin or other grandmother (just didn't have an opportunity to besides mail and email).

I still wish that I would be stronger and move on because I can't go back in time. I hated myself after they died for not getting closer to them before they died. My grandpa was in a nursing home which I just hate the idea of. I'm taking care of my parents when they get older just like my aunt took care of my grandma.