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Originally Posted by Elio
I use my journal this way. And yes, I ask her a zillion questions in my journal. They go all over the place from political stuff, academic stuff to does she even like me, why is she working with me. About 95% of the stuff I write her goes without discussion. I give her my journal and she reads it usually the day of my next session. I include detailed session notes so usually my journal is 8-9 pages single sided 2 x wk. I still am at emailing her almost weekly as well. That's more of an average because I'll go one week and email her every day and then maybe not email her for 2 weeks.
She rarely brings up anything I've written. If we are going to talk about it, I have to initiate it.
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Elio, I feel less alone being reminded that someone journals to their T too. My journals are typed and like yours, I ask her a lot of questions, I write about all sorts of stuff important to me - work, family, friends, politics, stuff I've read, the therapy relationship, my life experiences, questioning my gender, my hopes and dreams.
Most of it never gets discussed, but I am fine with raising things I want to address with her.
My journals are really, really long, so she takes her time reading them. Maybe she skims some and maybe doesn't read some. I know she files them away. What matters to me is she receives them and reads some of it.
I see her once a fortnight to once a month. and I never expect things written there to be raised. If it's a Big Thing which keeps surfacing in sessions too, she has brought it up and so have I.
For me, it's like maintaining connection with her, keeping me open and vulnerable, sharing my heart. I'm like a lonely child or lonely teenager or sometimes lonely adult wanting to tell her everything important to me.
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OP, as your therapist is OK with you emailing, email away. Trust that she will inform you of her boundaries and have a discussion with you if you're emailing "too much". She's a therapist and what better way to model stuff?
