Some of you knows that a little while ago I have left behind me my mother and sibblings because they were abusing me too much to a point I couldn't take it anymore. For a reason or another I can't get angry and I can't cope with people who do get angry. But I do understand that sometime people gets angry as it is a natural feeling, it's just a feeling that I have blocked in me. Also I can't hurt people as I know what it is to hurt so really, I have no deffence. So I had no choice but to walked out of their life.

My sister called me today. She got a hold of my phone number. She hurt me again and when she hung up I had a panick attack. I haven't gotten a panick attack for over a year. She just triggered me. I have to say that she is really cruel and she doesn't care.

Tomorrow I am changing my phone number again. And I really hope this time hubby will not give it to anyone but our children. I think he doesn't understand why. I wish he did.

Thank you for reading this!
Take all good care!
nightdream