Thank you for swearing
I didn't like how you said "You're not looking after your self, so you won't see 70 years anyway, why to hurry?"

I also didn't like how you said "I care about you... as part of the work". Huh? Okay, I always knew I'm just a work for you, but it was painful anyway. Very painful. I'm still hurting. So "real you" don't give a ****. Okay. Okay. It was foolish of me to think you care.

You have every right to hate me, I hate myself right now. Our next session is after almost 3 weeks. Maybe I should cancel? I don't know.

I know you think I'm an attention seeker. Maybe I am. I'm so tired. I don't deserve your attention or anyone's attention.

You looked different today. I worry about you. I feel guilty for bothering you. I'm sorry you have to deal with me "as part of the work". You don't have to.

I'm sad. Hurted. Angry.
I'll think about possibility of cancelling later.

Love you

Eta: tbh I think you messed up today. I'm sorry.