Brain dump for today so I can get to work:

I am separating out distress with an issue my kid's struggling with from my own longing for connection and the healthy and not so healthy things I may do to make it.

Being a parent and not wanting to disappoint my kid is tough. Guiding him without controlling him is not the easiest balance to achieve. My anxiety that I'm not a good enough parent or I'm making the wrong call and because I have to do it alone without his other parent to bounce this off. I need to control that and find the wisdom I need to communicate effectively.

Finding connection is elusive, too limited, my close friends have crisis after crisis. On edge about relating to anybody because I think they demand too much for me and I feel too depleted. I want to hole up in a beach cabin with my dog on a deserted island with no internet or phone. I want to focus on myself until I find my way back again.