Everything I read about Emdr said it is hard work but would be faster and more productive. I wish I knew how painful and triggering it was. My beat friend only should hear so much about it and my husband get a so angry when I talk about my pain and wants to kill my abuser. He never would but I can't help all that he is going through if I am falling apart.

I realize I need to go back to the days where I internalized all my pain and not depend on anybody and work harder on hiding my pain