EV, funny sometimes when I'm real down and manage to find the energy to go to the shops, I find if I just smile a 1 other person it lifts how I am feeling, and makes me glad I made the effort to go out. But having seen T would have added to the torment of missing her even more. Could you manage to go out again and just look at peoples faces? Its strange how sometimes eyes seem to meet, you dont know each other, but theres something connecting there.